Getting to that place they call “there”…

“There” always seemed to be a place I could never quite get to. I’d set some dream goal, pray for it, hope for it, work for it, strive for it, believe the will shall be done to take me to that place and deliver me to that feeling or experience I imagined it to be, but still I didn’t get there.

I built track after track as a producer desperately trying to compose the next dance music anthem, hoping that would be the thing that might lead me “there”, that elusive place, what or where was it, success, happiness, love, another city, another country? All I knew was that it certainly was not in the place that I was in at the time.

I had so many visions of that place called there, where I thought I would find what I was looking for, some in other cities, with other people, in different situations, wealthier perhaps, married, with children, living in a happy home with a happy ending, surely that must be there? Or was it in Jamaica where once I had felt an experience of being that was the highest state of joy and peace I’d ever known? If I went back there would that be it? Would that be “there”?

I put myself through a degree and post graduate masters thinking that surely after I had achieved these merits I would get “there”. I ran marathons, 5K, then 10K, then Half Marathon hoping they would help me to get “there”, but I still didn’t feel like I was there yet.

Then one day this year it just happened, I just started to feel different inside, after all the searching, understanding, learning, changing, working, dreaming, hoping, wishing and praying I just knew I was “there”…it did exist despite it’s somewhat elusive quality. It is not a place with a destination you can navigate to, it is a feeling, it is peace, it is acceptance, it is happiness, it is contentment…it’s a place inside and the journey to it can be a challenging one, but it is definitely worth it in the end…

So if you are looking for that place, don’t give up, keep on keeping on, you will find it if you make the journey and you will know when you reach “there”…

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